broken

I am so scared of what a life without you in it is like. I miss you already so much, but I cant keep standing in the shadows hoping for the spotlight to shine onto me. No matter how much you claim, you dont see me.  It hurts me so much, you have no idea of the pain I'm feeling, I kinda feel lost. where do I go from here?  All along my gut was like this is too good, now I know.

Why do guys continue to lie? seriously we always find out, one way or another.