9/2015

Lost my best friend. I love him so much more than he'll ever understand or know. Despite all that has happened, I have nothing bad to say. I will truly miss him, I ache at the thought that he will not be present for whatever the future holds. All the plans we had ever made just a whisper in the breeze. ...I need a drink.

Food=enemy

Eating makes me feel guilty. I hate myself after I eat. It could be something as small as an apple, and the hate I feel after is overwhelming. I would throw it up but than I feel bad for wasting. So I would rather not eat at all.

Baxter

Here is the love of my life! 

9/7/15

You talk about how parents love you. you had a full weekend where at any point you could have reached out to my dad. you had his number and you had my car. you didnt. chose to hang out with your coworkers dad.  than you tell me "it was late". you didnt try. you didnt want too. you just wanted to do you.