1/30/14

One of my favorite words....

1/29/14

On the way to my BF's moms house, a person created a martini glass and olive out of lights on their tree. Its hard to see the olive at the bottom, but its there. LOL Love it!

1/28/14

1/27/14

May your next journey be peaceful and full of light. Gone but never forgotten.
Rest In Peace Yohan.

You may be out of sight, but you will never be out of our hearts, I may not see your face but I will always remember your smile, I will never hear your voice again but you will forever whisper in my ear, I never got to say goodbye to you, or tell you how much you really meant to me, one day we will meet at heaven's gate and we'll be together again.
-Unknown

1/26/14

Mhmm Mai Tai's are yummy!! Happy Birthday Carlos!! Today we celebrated Mike's friend Carlos' 29th Birthday!

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1/24/14

Good Bye Pretty Nails :(

P.S. my hand looks really funky here...

1/23/14

YUM!! This is soooooo freaking good. If you want some good eats, go to La P'tite Framboise, located at 294 Main Street, Port Washington. Go for dinner any night of the week, but if you go on Wednesday you can get this awesome meal... just trust me, its absolute Yum! oh while you are there say to the bartender for me ;)   Here is there Facebook Link, go to their page and like it!!

https://www.facebook.com/LaPtiteFramboise

1/22/14

tried to capture the sky late at night, it had this awesome amber glow, as if someone up above was painting the town in a sepia tone... sadly this pic looks nothing like how it was...

Lots of photos today!! 1/21/14

The crazy snow and an accident right behind my house...

My Handsome baby boy in his coat playing in the snow..

Finally, Harley turns 6 years old today! Happy Birthday!!

1/20/14

I think I have something in my ear..

It feels huge, but I think I can get it out..

Omg!! what the hell?!?

AAARRRGGGHHHH  ITS EAR CHEESE!!!

1/19/14

So today I spent almost two hours at the gym to make up for all the junk food I had this weekend. Though right now I am craving sugary foods.   When I got home, I had this message waiting for me from a facebook follower:

Hello princess... i called you princess because your cuteness arrested me in my heart right
from the first time i saw your picture, permitted me the type of lady you are is not to be treated bad and all what you need is love and care..



Very Sweet.

Fingers crossed I get the job. I'm a bit mixed about both and the third, well I will find a way to get in somehow. Even if I make my own videos on saving our oceans...

My Photo of the day is my broken Fitbit Flex. I love this thing but  I was kinda pissed it broke,however the company is awesome and they are sending me a replacement! Woo.

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Sleep Harley...

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Chaminade hockey team vs their rival st. Anthony's 

Photo for 1/15

Driving to my interview in the morning..

Awesome view of Columbus Circle, From Dizzy's coca cola club at Lincoln Center

Photo for 1/14/14

Could you imagine a Clifford size Baxter? It would be soo awesome!

Considering one in five women in Korea gets plastic surgery/reconstructive surgery done, I wonder if it would be more cost efficient to go there and get various things sucked, nipped, tucked and enhanced, as opposed to having it done in the US. How would one go about finding that out?


Looks like I didn't win after all, but I am still getting two tickets to a show, sooo...I didn't really loose either. I am definitely not disappointed! still gotta figure out what I am going to see...

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I hope whatever job I get next allows for me to have days off...I have a lot of shit planned for this summer, and I have no intention of canceling anything. For example, February my baby boy turns 7 years old! My lovies birthday is in April, and if all goes as planned, his gift is gonna be pretty freaking awesome. Than June is Bonnaroo; My Birthday - my birthday is a big deal. I dont like to be the center of attention but I like to party, and I still would like to have that surprise masquerade ball/party. Just putting it out there...Hint Hint; My brother graduates highschool. July is tentatively my good friend Pauline's wedding; shark dive trip. August - well I really just love August - its just something about how the air feels and the ocean is warm and everything is always so blissful.  At some point this summer, I've got to go visit my home girl Rocco. Plus I would like to see my fam in Alabama and get some home cooked grits Mhmmm.

Sept is Moms bday and Oct Ash turns 21, and I've been promising her a crazy night. Plus there is a huge festival in Alabama that I would like to go too...   

yea....I've got plans. and that's just the big stuff

So I didn't do anything super exciting today so here is a fun pic I found online!

So you think this post is about you....

This time you are right. You dont want to talk, well maybe you'll hear me out this way

Thank you for pushing me off yesterday, I hope whatever you had to do was more important than resolving this issues we have.  I said I wanted to talk to you, but that it could wait till after work, it was to talk in general about us.

You brought up the whole blog thing. I dont think it was a fight but I do definitely think it was an argument and yes there is a difference. Like a fight, Id rather finish out an argument, make peace  and move on. Not have something linger for days. Nothing good comes from that. If something is bothering you, tell me. I dont see you anymore, like we use too, and I am not a mind reader. It seriously makes me wonder what is really going on. if you think that everything is about you. The only time anyone gets that defensive, is when they are up to shit. So wtf is going on?

And just b/c we get into a fight, doesnt mean it has to end with us breaking up. Unless somehow thats what you want. and if it is JUST SAY IT. Seriously why do you bring that up every time?

When I get into a relationship, I like to think of it as a team. You work together, look out for each other, check up on each other, overall let the other know whats going on.  We're not a team.

The last few days, have me really questioning a lot of things. We are barely communicating while I'm off. I'm going to be starting work, back to 20 hr days, how the fuck do you expect us to work then?

I feel like if I were to have a totem pole, on it would be Baxter, me, you and everyone/everything else. and yours, well  Baxter would be on it. If I even was on it, I would be way on the bottom.  Unless of course you need something to be brought to you, than hey hey look who's #1.  I'm kinda sick of being at the bottom. Maybe I'm wrong, and if I am I'm sure you'll tell me.

Actions speak louder than words.

Photo for 1/13/14

Its a bit early in the day for this one but I think this one wins.....haven't had Verizon for at least 4+ years.

I think Verizon forgot a few zeros...

Photo of the day 1/12/14

Saw some really cool scenery today, sadly I was driving and couldn't stop to take photos...possibly tomorrow if I can dig up enough cash for gas & tolls... in the meantime, here's my baby all sleepy and grumpy looking because I was taking photos of him at 4am.

Poor rabbit

I think we want different things but Im not ready to let go, cuz than i will never know what I'm missing, but I feel like I'm missing too much. So when do I give up what Ive been wishing for. But if I lose what I never found, am I actually losing anything at all? Why do I feel like I'm barely afloat?

And like a light bulb, it goes off, as is to announce "Aha I know now!" its not so much that I dislike to look, Its that I dont believe when its said simply looking is enough. Until the look is no longer in sight, there will always be this gap 

Photo of the day 1/11/14

This is my first time playing with my GoPro cam - check it out!

Photo for 1/10/14

I was told an "interesting" story, and well couldn't get it out of my head, hence today's photo....

Photo of the day 1/9/14

My first time at Joe's Crab Shack! Yum

Photo of the Day 1/8/14

Photo of the day 1/7

Me and my baby sis before she leaves for school tomorrow!

Imagination - where did you go?

I used to be able to write for hours about anything; love, heartbreak, friendship, betrayal. I look back and it wasn't half bad for a white girl who rarely left her yard. I use to be able to watch something and branch out from there, twisting and spinning to make it completely my own. Then somewhere, in the midst of going to college and getting a job, I lost it. My Imagination ran and left me behind. I look at movies and other works and think, that's so easy to do. While it is, I haven't done it, simply because when I have the opportunity to create something, i draw a blank. Or what I come up with is so cliche it wouldn't be worth even doing.

How do I get my imagination back?

"Did you ever feel, as though you had something inside you that was only waiting for you to give it a chance to come out? Some sort of extra power that you aren't using - you know, like all the water that goes down the falls instead of through the turbines?"
Aldous Huxley




My Photo of the day is my Yummy meal that I made - Egg noodles, kale and broccoli, sauteed with Garlic and small amount of red wine vinegar - simply yummy!

Photo of the day... Kinda

Ok so my goal this year is to take at least one photo of anything every day this year and make a collage at the end. Considering that today is the 5th, I'm already 4 days behind lol. Therefore I'll start with a photo from yesterday ....

My new toy

Goodbye 2013

2013 -  oh what a year you have been.

I started the year excited and terrified. I was starting a job that I did not want at NBC. I wanted to work for NBC, I did not want to be working for Jerry Springer.  The Jerry Springer show taught me that no matter what the perks may appear to be, sometimes its just not worth it. I met some very interesting people, and while I don't regret taking the job, I will never go back. This past year, I also had the privilege to work with some inspirational people, at some amazing production companies and even got to work on a few commercials.

I road tripped by myself with my boogie to Florida to see my best friend and her beautiful new family. What was suppose to be just a week turned out to be three and a half weeks and I would have stayed longer, had the reason I left not called me to go to Bonnaroo. I actually had no intention of coming back to NY. While my friend was at work, I was applying to jobs that were in a 15 mile radius to her house. I even drove out to Orlando to audition, but thats when I got the call and while my gut was calling me an asshole, I made plans to head back.

Bonnaroo - WOW. It was an insane experience that I'll never forget.  I met so many people, and just completely let go. It felt so amazing to be me and not hold back, b/c someone might think whatever they may think. I felt so at home, like being there was completely natural. No one here in NY would have a conversation about effects of oil spills on marine life with me. Fucking A as soon as I even start that conversation, people's eyes either roll and or they completely glaze over. I sat with some guy for over an hour talking about the New Orleans spill and it was awesome.

Finally,(and my fav part) this was the year that my point of view on a certain friend of mine changed. It started in late March, and I tried everything I could think of to make it go away. Hell I stayed in Florida for three weeks. Right when I totally gave up on any possibility that something could/would happen - it did. It's weird and crazy and somehow its just right. He makes me smile, even when he's pissing me off. I really care about him.

This NYE was my first New Years in over 5 years where I had someone to kiss at midnight and it was wonderful. Cannot wait to see what 2014 brings.