Poor rabbit

I think we want different things but Im not ready to let go, cuz than i will never know what I'm missing, but I feel like I'm missing too much. So when do I give up what Ive been wishing for. But if I lose what I never found, am I actually losing anything at all? Why do I feel like I'm barely afloat?

And like a light bulb, it goes off, as is to announce "Aha I know now!" its not so much that I dislike to look, Its that I dont believe when its said simply looking is enough. Until the look is no longer in sight, there will always be this gap